Review: Breaking Nova
Author: Jessica Sorensen
Published Date: 2013
Genre: NA, contemporary, romance, dark
Nova Reed used to have dreams-of becoming a famous drummer, of marrying her true love. But all of that was taken away in an instant. Now she's getting by as best she can, though sometimes that means doing things the old Nova would never do. Things that are slowly eating away at her spirit. Every day blends into the next . . . until she meets Quinton Carter. His intense, honey brown eyes instantly draw her in, and he looks just about as broken as she feels inside.
Quinton once got a second chance at life-but he doesn't want it. The tattoos on his chest are a constant reminder of what he's done, what he's lost. He's sworn to never allow happiness into his life . . . but then beautiful, sweet Nova makes him smile. He knows he's too damaged to get close to her, yet she's the only one who can make him feel alive again. Quinton will have to decide: does he deserve to start over? Or should he pay for his past forever?
(ALL THE PICTURES AREN'T MINE. CREDITS TO THE OWNERS)
Breaking Nova is a very emotional read for me. From page 1 'til the last it never failed to bring a canon of emotions from all the characters. I was iffy with the whole "i am so depressed so I need drugs to forget" theme for this novel, but later then I gave in.
The characters were flawed and painfully broken. Nova lost Landon, her boyfriend aka the love of her life, because of a suicide. On the other hand, Quinton lost Lexie, her girlfriend aka the girl she wanted to marry, through an accident in which Quinton was the one driving. They were both trapped in the past and they can't find the way back to the present and look forward for the future. Then one day they met and they felt that a piece of them came back to its senses. It didn't end there because they kept questioning their capability to love again and to be whole again. So many unfortunate events that lead their life into vain and so much pain. I can literally feel their despair, desolation and emptiness through Jessica's writing style.
They developed a relationship with a lot of "what ifs". Their relationship was as complicated as the turmoil of emotions going through them. They find peace, but there's always a loophole for chaos and perplexity. The tension between them is flaring with raw emotions that I felt like gasping for air. They were both confused and out of love.
It is not the romantic aspect that made a big deal out of this. It is how Nova fought the numbness and emptiness to start again with a whole positive and hopeful view in life. The scene where she watched the video of Landon, that broke me into pieces. I didn't exactly cry but i felt my whole heart crying inside my ribcage. In the end, she learned to forgive and admitted:
“I'm learning that it's okay. It's okay to hurt. It's okay to cry. It's okay to admit we need help. It's okay to let go.”
Quinton still has a long way for this. He badly needs help as he drowns himself to drugs. Guilt and shame still lingers on his veins and he can't help but try everything to be dead inside and maybe outside. It is pitiful, but at the same time sympathetic The ending gave a glimpse onto how will the second book will start and continue the broken story.
At some point, I can totally relate to whatever they are feeling minus the feeling of suicidal and all.
The end was a cliff-hanger but it was written in a way the readers will understand their story is not just a stand alone book.... Indeed this book was a rollercoaster ride of emotions that tackled about how it felt to be flawed, empty, hopeless, numb, broken and how someone can change us and how we can change ourself. Life is wonderful. Don't take it for granted. Kudos Jessica Sorensen!